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It's not that I've been so wholly absorbed into facebooks addictive interface as to forget livejournal altogether, but talking has been working out rather well for me, so the need to rant has somewhat lessened.
But lili nudged me, so I guess I'll spill.
My cousin, Andrew, in Guam has been missing since last friday. He's the definition of an island boy, that is to say he can and does live off the land whenever possible. His dad's family owns a beach on Guam, and the highlight of every trip back that I can remember has been the long trek in the back of a pick up truck through the booney roads and jungle brush out to their property on Urunao. Our designated tour guide for every recent trip, Andrew was always the one to pile us into the car with the snorkel gear and sunscreen to let his awkward california cousins catch a glimpse of a real beach. While we fumbled about in the reefs and shallow waters, he actually achieved a kind of belonging with the beach. He spent a lot of time camping out there, sleeping in the sand and eating what he caught (he was the slash a coconut open when you're thirsty type of rugged) and often he'd go alone. Last week he didn't come back from a spear fishing trip, this morning the coast guard suspended their search until something new turns up. He's 25, and has two older siblings and a fairly large extended family. A lot of my cousins grew up together on Guam, so they're all close, and everyone's very distraught right now. So for those of you who do (and I've seen a few offers on here before, so I thought I'd ask) please pray for him and his family, thanks.
That's all, I hope summer's treating everyone well, let's cram in some togetherness before august, yes?
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[27 Aug 2006|01:20am] |
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| can you extract me from my plastic fantasy? i didnt think so. |
[25 Jul 2006|12:17am] |
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but i'm still convinceable.
look everybody, a public entry. tis amazing.
I'm thinking maybe if i made this friends only i wouldn't feel compelled to make every single post private after i write it with the intention of making a normal post. I don't try to be a stupid picture slut, its just that I'm becoming increasingly awful with words...with conveying concepts and holding conversations. It's sort of a chronic aphasia i've been dealing with the past few months. the past year. but i suppose it will pass.
In the meantime...
Enjoy july kids, summer's going fast.
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| ah, fuck it, i'm gonna have a party |
[18 Jun 2006|11:43pm] |
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pictures now, words later.
threemonthsthreemonthsthreemonths.
i think i have my hopes up.
i think that might be stupid.
i think i just don't care.
happy summer everybody :]
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| I can dream of you without snoring |
[29 May 2006|08:30pm] |
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What the world really needs...
Is a few more well intentioned camera whores.
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[18 May 2006|03:24pm] |
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Color me hypochondriacal, but I believe I may have hit upon something.
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| well we made love like a pair of black wizards |
[09 Apr 2006|11:15pm] |
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It's nice to move away from slow implosion.
School has a tendency to make me feel like i'm rotting.
Like I'm an idiot and my stupidity and laziness is slowly decomposing my brain into a nice tidy puddle of mush.
it would probably be purple.
my brain mush that is.
Spring break, will you marry me?
Friday was submit to guilty pleasures day. Saturday(aka"mother fuckin cockout day") meant a new friend at downtown disney, shabu shabu,gelato and freeways.
Today was petty larceny, produce aisle promiscuity,and omgzz rollercoasters.
( The day we could have died in Buena Park )
 Hey how'd those get there? unfortuantely the second half of the adventure embarassment escaped all cameras so you dont get to see us be ridiculous. END!! ♥
p.s. call if you wanna do something this week. I'll consult the diagram. the tiffogram? Tiffanyesque diagram?
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| and then there is no mystery left |
[03 Apr 2006|04:04pm] |
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The sun is such a tease.
What crappy weather.
it better not rain on our kickball tournament.
I feel like i should substantiate this somewhat since i'm constantly harping about the stupidity of myspace having only pictures and comments yet that's basically all i've been posting...
but everybody loves a hypocrite♥
This weekend was well spent. Singing/cheerleading/guitar playing/sandwich-making adolescent males, "approving" my long lost buddy's boy toy, last minute party city runs and sadies and cows. Plus I don't know if you knew this, but Daya aged on us this Sunday. Happy first full day of being seventeen :)
Once I get over my fascination with private entries i'll update more than once a month, promise.
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| I set it alight it burns so bright, yeah you’re draining me. |
[29 Jan 2006|01:14pm] |
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so i just wrote a freaking long entry about the castration of flirtacious twelve year olds, fondue, All Quiet on the western front, small men, my so-ugly-its-gorgeous green plaid dress, Redeye, henrys party, Briar Ball Juggler, and the short lived aquatic aspirations of my cell phone but lj freaked out and deleted it so i'm not typing it again.
You were going to get a nice whine free picture-full entry but OH WELL. Stupid lj.
October was lame so i'm skipping it. This week was TEAriffic though. I'm so clever. Everything stressful's pretty much over. SAT's, finals, all that jazz. None of it was worth the stress and i'm thinking maybe other things aren't either. This semester will be fun.
I found these ( Prehistoric cave paintings ) in the caverns of my iphoto library. check it out.
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| we were make believers, just losing time |
[12 Oct 2005|07:44pm] |
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hmm, been a while. Lets see...since July i've...gone insane, gone to guam, learned to fear old age, gone to hawaii, learned four chords on the ukelele (yes!), bubbled about at disneyland, whored it up at morp, kinda got some action with geena helen rachel and tiff(mmm 99 cent store lingerie), realized that september and i will never get along, spent more time in front of the tv since my pokemon obsession(gilmore girls), become obsessed with the academy is, started to hate canaries, had some trouble with the selectivity of my selective memory, and decided that my cats will be multi racial so that dree wll be happy.
and of course homecoming. so figured i'd kill the moratorium from online blogness and provide you poor souls with some visual stimulation.
( solemente para ti )
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| slow fading |
[29 Jul 2005|04:23pm] |
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Photography is finally over.
I think i'm going to miss the people there more than i'm going to miss the feeling of wanting to die [or at least sleep] i had pretty much the whole time i was in that class.
The Getty was pretty nice today. Considering the mild disorientation i had from sudafed and [still] being sleep deprived it was a lot of fun. The combination of fun kids, frapps, and huge flowers always makes me happy. Which is good because i have a feeling that the second i stop doing things i'll explode. in slow motion...so as to ruin any amount of coolness spontaneous combustion would otherwise entail.
Which is why i'm extremely afraid of going to Guam. If i don't think myself into a mental breakdown while i'm there it'll be a miracle. On the upside, if i snap while im there i can run off into the jungle and gather a loyal clan of booney dogs to live with me and be my minions and i can live a happy life of eccentric solitude on the beach.
Last night, while i was busy not being able to sleep, i had a frustratingly repetative and confusing half-dream. I was half awake and laying in bed and there were masses of people shoving lenses into my hands and telling me to focus things over and over. Things, not photos. So no, this wasn't a nightmare about photography exactly. i wasn't even fully asleep so i think it was more of a deluded attempt by my subconscience to get me to chuck certain things out of my window. Perhaps i should. Having the same dream all night should be illegal. it's not much fun.
Oh, and let's make the assumption that i don't flee civilization for a chance to spend the rest of my life with my multiple personalities on Guam; Be cool and volunteer yourself to recieve tons of postcards and obnoxiously long letters while i'm there. Leave your address and i promise i'll write, it'll give me somethign useful to do.
Fair tomorrow, disneyland on Sunday, movie night on monday (supposedly at my house, come if you can), dashboard on tuesday (yay!), disneyland e-popular style on wednesday, leaving on friday. I think i'm safe from thinking this week.
( yes, i'm posting lyrics. No, you don't have to read them )
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[19 Jul 2005|01:05pm] |
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No lj cut for you. deal with it. 
Duke+Gigi=♥
If ever the temperature drops below 70 at the beach and you find yourself shivering and unwilling to subject yourself to frigid liquid pollution I suggest the above as means of entertainment. Who knew sticks and kelp could be so much fun? Especially when given breast implants. You can't see those in the picture, but trust me they're there.
and that was pretty much my weekend. Notice the total absence of Harry Potter. haha.
I have 12 days to make this summer worthy of being called such before being banished to Guam to rot from isolation and inevitable boredom for three weeks. I suggest Mexico night disneyland bonfire and movie nights. Somebody join me please. I dont want to wander around disneyland or the beach by myself.
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| Oh oh, goddamnit i think i've lost it, oh god god damn it.. |
[12 Jul 2005|11:11pm] |
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Today pretty much worked in reverse.
And while it would be fitting to write this all backwards, i won't.
Things that happen at three o clock in the morning that i miss:
My brain working
Actually being able to read things
Deliriously wonderful conversations
Increased detrimental activity in my imagination
The creation of massive photoshop collages
AND.
and thats a big and.
ohmanohmanohmanohman.
sotodaywaslikewatchingamovieonlyworselikemoulinrougethelasttenminutesthefirsttenorsotimesisawitandimfeelingbetterbutitmightvebeenmorebeneficialtomysanityhadidecidedtobeanidiotpriortotheallhealingtriptothemagnificent711withthewonderfultiffanypsimdoingthatthingidoifiweretalkingoutloudidbewhisperingrightnowsowhybother?meh.soifiseemedoutofittonightimsorrybutineededtodayandipromisetosnapoutofiteventually.
ANYWAYS.
Happy Birth Day Jenitals. 
I'd put sixteen of them...but i think that might be obnoxious.
BAYSIDEANDVENDETTARED
and they better not be sold out or i'll cry forever.
but if we {we being myself and a portion of the general populace, preferably including a few who i'm more or less acquainted with} go i'll be eternally happy.
even on tuesdays.
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| hunger hurts but starving works |
[03 Jul 2005|01:22am] |
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This song has been in hibernation for a while. a good thing i think. i think.
ooh hibernation.
i'll save that rant for another time.
this week has been ...meh.
thursday night was great. i think i finally succeeded in making Tiffany romantically interested in me. yesss. and even if i didnt it was still worth it. Staying up and watching depressing movies is what summer is all about. Would've been better if we'd called her Southern lovers but for some reason [and theres no way it could be because i like to steal her phone and call them] she took them out of her phonebook. damn. Plus it saved me from certain insanity. i dont know what it was about thursday but. ah.
My mom is gone. She's chilling with some monks or something. why? well why not?
But i'm just glad i won't be kicked off the computer to allow her to google preists and retreat sites and then scoff loudly in hopes that i'll ask why and launch her into an hour long bitch session about new age things and damnation.
okay maybe shes not that bad.
My favorite word is and. and and and and and.
and today was pretty good. went to fremm fest and saw lots and lots of people. like scenery. ahaha. and suddenly i'm craving a blue powerade. but not really. and i got to hang out with this pretty cool orangutan i know. He got me drunk and tried to push me off a cliff. damn orangutans.
and monday is the 4th of July. and i already ate a whole bag of marshmallows i convinced my mom to buy for said holiday and theoretical smores which will never be made. i fucking love marshmallows
and i fucking hate aim. and communication in general. and i want my box back. and i'm not going to sleep tonight.
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| and when you ask "is something wrong?".. |
[25 Jun 2005|01:33am] |
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i think it's funny how i never got this song until tiffany pointed it out to me. bruises. ah, bruises.
this isnt summer. not yet. i haven't seen enough early morning delirium to believe that it is. and by early morning i mean before 5 in the morning. there has been disneyland and the beach and sushi and other such celebratory events. but i've yet to finish even one book. i miss 3:00 in the morning. amongst other things.
today was fun, minus an hour or so of car rides.
i want to move to Lacedaemon. if you understand that you're as big of a nerd as i am and i love you.
The smoke went straight to my head. and that's why i'm making no sense. but it could be worse..
id olc be tldkigran in coaey wo or sclimbdg umrns. nbghtho o wlnd e ter beoouo reera tvhdt thoau. which is pretty amusing. anyways. thes hies wrthee i hate snati. foeasor nto r a nll. amd soentes ii love imt. so i gueralebe it is sumyss mamer aftl. ei j nined som muestore ite to mit somletak. d i wish i wish i wish i uood hlaaco tsoanek inoht t ta. but i don't and i won't i'gtieneimtdtnvgaor.
Tamara and Leanna are coming back this month! i haven't seen my darling tamara in nearly a year. i can't wait. downtown disney maybe? relive old memories? i hope so. heh. yeeeah.
and i want to strangle you.
the end.
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| and we'll stay awake through summer like we own the heat |
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NO MORE JOHNSON!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERRRRRRRRRRRR! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!
I'm in euro right now, doing nothing because Finding Neverland has no Chinese subtitles. Tomorrow's ther last dayyyy!!!!! AHHHHH!!! this week has been moderately interesting. My brother was here on Monday and Tuesday. He brought me video games because i'm a nerd. it was exciting :) We went to an angels game on Monday, and they kicked Washington's ass. at least i think it was washington. I was more amused by the cotton candy than anything else. mmmmmmm.
Jessie and I want to find an animal shelter to volunteer at this summer. Anyone know where there's one nearby? I loathe not being able to drive. But this is nothing new. So i was going to take ROP photography with lili and krupa..but then last night i realized that when she said it started at 7:30 she probably didnt mean pm. haha, SCREW THAT. Sleep, precious sleep...it's so close i can taste it. Summer's going to be awesome. I have like a two page list of books i need to read...and other than that all im doing is sleep and disneyland. and food. SMORES! ah, finally normal sleeping and eating habits.
So my plan for this summer is to successfully sneak out of my room in the middle of the night. even if i have nothing to do but wander around my neighborhood i'm doing it. Pointless? most likely, but such is summer.
My computer more or less commited suicide last week so i don't know when i'm going to have any pictures. oh well.
lastdaylastdaylastday.
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| Wait for summer to become wrought with lips, my wishful thinking |
[09 Jun 2005|04:54pm] |
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Poor neglected live journal.
I have precious little to vent about..so i guess i just haven't built up enough teenage angst to justify an entry.
Anyway, the past few weeks have been wonderful. Last last friday (two weeks ago) was my Birthday. School was pretty fun and Mae was amazing. Sweat+sandals+sexy lead singer. good times. And then an attempted Gilmore Girls marathon at Dree's along with brownies, mmm. Saturday I went to Newport/Balboa with Devin, mucho divertido tambien. Sunday I thought I was just going to Downtown Disney to stare at Hayden Christensen ("Anniken, you're breaking my heart!") but when i got home there were strange children in my house yelling surprise and such. I love my friends ♥ ♥. So the party was awesome, thanks everybody! then the rest of the week was mediocre, lots of homework i didnt do and too many projects that interfered with my laziness. SCHOOLSALMOSTOVERYESSSSSS.
Summer is so close it's making me giddy. Honestly, i feel like a four year old. Happy anticipation is one of the best feelings in the world if you ask me. Ah, sleep! Narcolepsy and insomnia all at once. This is going to be wonderful. Last summer was 24 hours...so this summer 48 with no sleep, who's with me?
Anyway...Tuesday was Dree's 21st Birthday, Happy Birthday Dree! we ate at Koji's and i was very amused with my chopsticks. Asians are so cool.
and i chopped off my hair! So it's somewhat less of a pain in the ass now, yay.
Yesterday Grishilda and I finished up our Dutch Stuff, which is going to be pretty awesome. clogs and sinterklaas, you can't go wrong. those crazy dutch people.
The weather today really screwed me up. I feel very disconcerted. For example i went to the mall out of my own free will...and even into Abercrombie. Drew wasn't even there (Sorry Jennie and Linh..not that i had a camera anyways). But i bought stuff (not there) so it was at least productive. Plus i got a snow bubble sans the boba. I didn't feel like bursting into spontaneous laughter. In a week that's all i'll be doing all day.
summersummersummersummersummersummer.
end.
p.s. i have pictures of la fiesta to post eventually....maybe.
p.p.s MONDAY IS VAGEENA'S BIRTHDAY! everyone poke her 16 times.
p.p.p.s. EVERYONE GO TO THE DANCE TOMORROW
p.p.p.p.s. ...sorry. i was having fun.
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| No apologies because my urge is genuine |
[15 May 2005|12:57am] |
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Boredom is sheer bliss. And i love it when this happens, the monotony and all of it. Don't let me tell you otherwise. And don't ask me what i'm talking about, because i really couldn't say. but i love it all.
Summers almost here. Summer summer summer. I can't wait, and not just because i'm sick of homework, though i am. I'm mostly sick of schedules. Of calendars and alarm clocks and bells and the whole bit. During summer those barely even exist, and all there is is time. Unmediated and inane, and if i had my way it would stay like that forever. But there isn't a forever because we have schedules and seasons and months and days. And theres 24 (?) left until theres nothing there to count and i'm so happy i could burst.
But first of course there's mountains of projects and tests and crap. And most of this happening before noon. Ugh.
So today i stayed home in a vain attempt to force myself into doing some work on my english project. hah. When i woke up Dree and I went to Brea's Best and she let me drive around the Beechwood parking lot again. Once i manage to distinguish the break from the gas i think i'll be a pretty awesome driver. I can't wait to get out of parking lots and start running some things over. That requires a permit though, and i'm not too sure when that's going to be happening.
I also almost set my room on fire. It seems that notecards are more flammable then i remembered. But i love the smell when they're burnt...so i'll just keep some water within reach the next tme i play with matches.
ah, summer!! and Mae!!
I can't sit still. i'm going to go find something else to do.
yeah you do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do
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| interview thingy |
[08 May 2005|04:02pm] |
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1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
1) .drah taht ton sti .semitemos syad fo elpuoc a rof tae tnod i citehtapa yllaer ro (sdrawkcab stressed si desserts ahaha)desserts yllaer mi nehw (eid d'i taht tcaf eht sediseb) pu ti evig dluoc i tub ,nuf si gnitae .hcum oot yaw gnimaerd yojne i...gnipeels pu evig reven dluoc i
i'm sick of writing backwards again.
2) No, i don't believe in soulmates. At least not soulmates like theres one person in the world who you're destined to fall in love with. I think that theres millions of people who you could fall in love with if you got to know them...if you happen to find one i guess that counts as your soulmate, but i dont think fate has anything to do with it.
3)That's two questions..cheater. The best qualities a person can have are probably ....tact, self confidence, and intelligence. I can't stand people that are rude and obnoxious and doubly so when they're stupid. And it's always good to be able to like yourself, i think that's probably more important than the other two. I don't think i have qualities good enough to brag about. I'm pretty good at containing my insanity (though you probably disagree, i really do keep most of it in my head i swear) and i'm not terribly mean most of the time, so i guess thats good too. My worst qualities would be that i'm self centered, insecure, and very very disorganized.
4) I can't live without my diary. i've tried before and only bad things happen. Besides that, i like having my computer around...just to keep me from sitting and staring at the walls all day.
5) The sun, crushes, cookies, sugar, brownies, frosting, jello, ice cream, dessert in general, hugs, kisses, ever after, moulin rouge, wedding singer, now and then, ferngully, my sister, my wonderful friends, my not so wonderful friends, long telephone conversations, getting text messages in the middle of the night, staying up all night, good books, writing, mae, selected n*sync songs, disneyland, fireworks, Aqua, being squished, thunder and lightning, daydreams, dreams, dancing, dances, fuzzy animals, pebbles, reading old diaries and letters and things, getting mail, nostalgia, the park, being dizzy, screaming, crying (yes sometimes crying makes me happy) burning things, getting away with lies, being home alone,summer, you!
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